and yes...those are stretchmarks....lovely!
also..I think I have been in these clothes for like 3 days
24 days may sound close, but it feels like an eternity. I am trying to throw myself into little projects for Dylan for Valentines Day and really just anything to pass the time.
I am mainly posting to give you all an update, but also to mark this moment for myself. When I look back on being pregnant with Dylan it all seemed so magically and pain free and just perfect. So when we go to make the decision to have our third I just want to be sure that I remember this day; when my stomach is killing me, my back is killing me, my breast are killing me. I have acid reflux so bad I throw up, which makes my stomach hurt even more. And I am so exhausted that the idea of ordering a pizza even seems like too much work for dinner. I am almost 37 weeks pregnant and I am still waiting for nesting...I hear its real I just need to experience it, heaven knows my house needs to.
I was hoping to keep my post happy and positive, but I think realistic is best for this one. I promised myself not to get anxious and just let the baby come in his own time, but if there is a qualified surgeon reading this I am ready for you to take the baby today!!!!
Love,
Grouchy Mommy!
p.s. Josh has been absolutely amazing, I am very lucky...it's like he was saving it all for the end. I rest when I need to, he gives me massages and he is super understanding. I have one of the best husbands and little boys. So for them I am grateful!
Don't be so hard on yourself or get discouraged. The end is always harder....plus you need to realize, it's like everything else, we can plan and plan and plan, and while that's great.... the baby is coming when he comes and when he gets here all he really needs is to be loved, fed and changed. And honestly, as much as you clean and organinze your house in preparation of this baby, (and that will help you in the beginning), you will really need to just find the groove that works when the time comes. I wouldn't stress yourself out about it. You know that your house isn't going to "stay" clean, thats the worse part..... its so frusrating. But 26 years later I still find that... you just have to make your things manageable, and then just stay at it.
ReplyDeleteSounds bad.... but that just how it is. I have become so stressed over the years, because of my expectation of how things around the house "should" be, and that it doesn't seem as important to everyone else and the only person it bothered was me.... so why put ourselves through that.... just find the minimum that works and ENJOY those boys. Don't make your self worth be about housework.
You are doing great....... I love you.
MOM